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XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 6:22 AM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Hmm, year 2009 is just a few days away.I don't know why I suddenly feel like posting the poems I wrote for "pui eh". haha. It happen a year ago which I was madly in love with her, waited about a year, tried to woo her and cried alot for. I think I'd posted part of it before. So these poem which I wrote, is for her, but she didn't read it. Who knows she would visit my blog and take a look. Erm, if she really read it, how she feels/think no longer matters. Blogging is like my diary, I write what I feel. If you can't stand it, get out of here. It's very long cus I posted all that I wrote for her. You need patience to read this, do not just scan through cus it'll only make the words meaningless. Alright here it is: DO NOT COPY! -Even though it’s been so long My love for you keeps going strong I tried to deny it, but I’m still in love with you Every hour every day, my love for you won’t fade away No matter what I say or do, there’s just no getting over you If seeing is believing its worth the wait So turn back now and tell me its not too late Do you know I’m such a fool for you? If you turn back now and tell me its not too late I would rather be a fool, just to be with you, than someone who never had a part of you I might have been in love before, but it never felt this strong I will always be there for you if you should need me I can’t cheat my feelings anymore, I can’t, you’re just irreplaceable in my heart I found it very hard to stay away It’s so easy to see that you’re a part of me now.. Letting go of you makes me feel so amiss Without you, is like facing the world with an empty heart -There’s no easy way, it gets harder each day. Only your emotional tools can cure a fool like me Sometimes the very thing you’re looking for, is the one thing you can’t see And that is me, I’m that one thing you can’t see. Because a person like me don’t exist in your world. I can’t believe this pain is driving me insane, take me, into your darkest hour and I’ll never dessert you, I’ll stand by you till the end of time. Nothing to say, nothing to hide, believe what I say although it seems unreal. Hoping you will see what your love means to me I’m always hoping the best but expecting the worst. You’ll never know how I feel until someday, someone hold you down and make you cry If salvation seems worlds away, I’ll be found In my life, there’s been heartache and pain, I don’t know if I can face it again Nothing I confessed, could make me love you less This might sound unbelievable to you, but it is true This is from the bottom of my heart, believe it or not it’s up to you. -I thought I heard your voice yesterday When I turn around to say I love you then I realized My mind was playing tricks on me Time, I have been passing time Watching days go by If you leave now, you will be taking the biggest part of me. Baby, please don’t go, if you leave now, You will be taking the very heart of me I will be your guiding star if you should need me I lied on my bed staring at the same old wall thinking of you, smiling and crying at the same time. Asking myself why am I like this. Is giving up on you so difficult? I tried to erase you from my mind, but It didn’t work and become more obvious. I had been in love before but it had never been like this I really don’t know what it takes to make you love me If I got down on my knees and I plead to you, will you accept this love of mine? I don’t know much, but I know I love you, that may be all I need to know So many questions still left unanswered When you come around you bring me a brighter day, you’re the perfect one for me and will always be 'This is the last "poem" which I wrote for her cus I'm trying to forget.' -You know I told you how I feel from the start exactly how I feel, time goes on It seems many things has changed When you’re not around my heart stood still It’s my front that I don’t need you, have you ever thought of what’s in my heart? It’s the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance It’s the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes a chance This is what I am afraid of. I don’t know how to say this, but I can never forget you All the while, it’s the fact that I can’t accept that you’ll never be mine I’m not trying to prove anything, I just hope that you will accept me I liked you more than six months already. Is this called love or only one-sided love? I think it is obvious enough already, I’m the willing party Maybe we live in two different worlds, I’ve said this many times Verbal cannot change my love for you, it’s the feeling I have to stay calm, no matter what. I still can’t hold your hands and tell you how much I love you After I met you, you changed my life and become whom I’m not Don’t know what you are to me now, cause my hopes on you is getting lower and lesser each day Is this part of letting go of you? The burden in my heart is easing. And I’m praying, hoping that it really is. If you ever read any of these, please remember that I love you for real and it's not what you think. I don't say I love you to make a conversation, I say it to remind you that I really do. It really takes a lot of courage to confess one’s love to somebody I will treat all this as my history. You are in my history, the one whom I loved most. All these are the past, it’s the future that I’m looking forward to. Hope you will do well in everything. I wrote this for her in 2007, but it's in the past now. haha. Thinking back about how much time I've "wasted" I feel kindda stupid now, not saying that I regretted but makes no difference from a fool. I combined everything I wrote together. Really hope she gets to read this. Cannot copy ah! |