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![]() XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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Thursday, January 22, 2009 @ 8:22 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Today took the maths test, i thought it is not counted in ca1 so I didn't study for it.I leave it blank, did only the first page and others I write andything or i don't know. I'm confident that I will get 0 for maths. I hate maths alot. Hate it to the core! So while waiting for time's up, I drew monkey on the back of the paper. After this paper, I fell so hopeless. And I don't know why. I just feel like giving up studies. Im not made for studying, it's really something I don't like but have to. I'm hanging on for my dad, cus I want to give a a better life when I grow up. Sometimes, when i see him I just wanna tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me. If not for him, I won't have today. My biological mother don't want me so my dad kept me. I know about this not long ago. I know i'd blogged about this alot of times but I'm really upset over this matter. I hate me biological mother alot, if she were to come back I would do what she did to me much more than what she did to me. I want her money not her anymore. I know i'm heartless or whatsoever but that's what she do to me. Been a fool for more than ten years? Every year I wish on my birthday that I could see her again. But not anymore, I'm so sick of stupid wishes that never comes true. Wishes are like dream. And dream are lies. I cant explain how much I hate her but I just can't accept the truth. I feel like screaming my anger in my heart and tell her how much I hate her and all. Everytime I put on a front like i can handle anything, pretend it's not hurting me and smile to hide the pain. But now I don't think I can do this anymore. I don't really know how to open up about this to my friends cus it's kind of like bothering them as this year is a busy year. But after reading this, I think you'll know. Although in the past I'd always wanted to see her and aknowledge her but now I just want the money that she took away from dad and me. I know im money-face but through these years, dad is facing difficulties too. I won't state it here cus it's private. Okay gonna stop here. Bye): |