Cus you say.

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Friday, July 23, 2010 @ 11:12 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.

sigh~
I feel like im a living dead!
Seriously don't want to face problems after another, when will it ever stop?
I used to feel that going to school with the presence of friends, i will be happy.
But i never used to feel this way before, now i dread it and honestly i hate it.
No matter how much i tell myself, hang on for the sake of this course which i love alot.
It doesn't seem to be significant to me anymore, why why WHY?!

Im so tired, tired of being understanding.
I give in, but there's a limit to everything isn't it?
Like i've said, don't take my silence for granted.
I'm a human being, and i do have feelings as well.
Now, i dont know how to face you, and i can't face you like before.
Cus everythings just not the same anymore.
We are drifting apart, real far.
Not because of work, but because we simply DRIFTED.
Why?
It's better to self reflect.

Reasons why?
1. Self Centred
2.Jealous
3.Insecurities
4.Lack of trust within us
5.Attitude/Personal problem
6.We don't say how we feel about each other which now misleads us to how we are now.
7.Nothing to talk about.
there are many more, you want to name out some?
I'm not trying to pick or start a blog war.
But tell me, is there any way to make things better rather than worst?

It's just the start, we've only been through half year!
How to go through another 1 and the half more year?
When we are struggling like this.

First time i've ever felt this way.
There's really no one to trust.

Would it be better if we thrash things out, or would it get worser than before?
It's better to be prepared mentally.

Problems in school, problems at home.
Wah~~~~!!!!!
I really want to have a break!
Really want to run away from all these, but i will still have to face it again right?
Damn, who can understand this?
At home, someone can't wait for me to move out.
Hang on? Keep holding on?
What does this means?

How/when can i ever smile or laugh sincerely from the bottom of my heart again?
Those smile and laughter which comes from within me.
I can't seem to put on a front to smile anymore, i dont know how to stay strong any longer..

Recently, there are quite a number of things which happened kind of sudden, i just can't take it.
Maybe that's one of the reason, my health is degrading.
And it really is, running fever now.
No one's at home, blogging is what i can do now.
Like what i've stated, blogger is my diary.
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