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Sunday, August 22, 2010 @ 10:51 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.

Hi,
it's me blogging again.
Recently active blogging.
Anyway worked today.
This morning reached the bus stop and wanted to tap card then i realised my wallet is not with me! -.-
So went all the way back home to take, was late for work.
During work.
I was supposed to give the customer $21.10 change, but i gave him $2.10 instead!
Glenn was really shocked, his reaction damn funny.
Then when customer's asked me questions, my mind like cannot really answer.
Dammit, but glenn always help me.
So it's okay.

And got bad sore throat.
Cannot afford to swallow my own saliva.
Damn sore.

Actually am still very worried.
Last night i overheard dad and mom's conversation.
Dad himself know that the chances of being locked up is high.
And IF my dad got locked up, im surely out of this house for good.
It grants that 'women's' wish.
Actually, i really have no plan and im really lost.
I hate admitting this, but now i can't lie that im not.

Not that im trying to be negative, but at times like this i really can't look at the bright side.
I know that it isn't right, but i couldn't refrain myself from thinking and stop worrying.
Cus now, it's just that the 'guys' are not discharged from the hospital.
I'm sure if they do, they won't let my dad off.

sigh~

Sometimes i just want to sit down and cry for all i want.
Go somewhere far from all these.
This problem seems just like what we've seen on tv shows/dramas, but i can't believe it's really happening to me.

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Jingui :

hi jinn.
I really appreciate what you've said.
But i know even if it's just anything, i feel ashamed to receive it.
Not that i don't regard you or anyone you as friend.
But it's just that, i don't want to rely or depend on you guys in a way or another.
Thank you alot, all i need is to know you guys are always there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on.

I just..
don't know how it put it in words now.
Just hope this gets better and will be solved as soon as possible.
Cus as days drags, i feel really lost and can't seem to think properly.
Jinn, all i can tell you now is im scared..
im really scared..
no matter how i tell myself to be strong, my level of weakness is still the same.
Never thought it feels so real when you are about to lose someone in a way or another.
...
maybe things aren't as bad as i thought, but sometimes you just see it coming.

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