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XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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A SHARED MOMENT..
Sunday, June 26, 2011 @ 2:01 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
I never knew that a simple meal with just fried fish, light sauce and porridge could taste so so good.. I've never tasted home-cooked food like this for more than a year, or could say 2 years now.. I've never really sat down alone with my dad for a simple meal together like this.. This afternoon, i was asleep in my room and my alarm rang so i snoozed it once again. My dad was in the living room, he came in, and kissed me at my forehead, I know cus i was already half awake. [which was really really sweet for an unexpressive man like him to express himself like this] Then he walked out, he asked my maid "You got cook Xin ying's rice?", my maid answered "No.." He asked why don't want to cook her rice? And immediately asked her to cook porridge for me and him. He then took out my favourite fish and asked her to cook. I was pretending to sleep when i heard all these conversation. So after about 20mins or so, i woke up. Greeted my dad, he asked me to eat with him. I was like "orh, i go bathe first". Trying to keep my emotions cool. He hardly or can say never initiated for a meal together, and when i asked him whether want to eat together or what, he is either working or had already eaten. After i showered, i asked him, "Got cook my share meh?" He said, I asked Nova[maid's name] to cook porridge for us with your favourite fish, must eat ah. I was like "orh.." Then went to kitchen to distrubute the porridge, but the porridge my maid cooked was just enough for 1 person, which she did it purposely. I was like "Papa, you see the porridge enough or not?" He came and looked at the porridge, "never mind lah, i eat abit can already, you eat all." Felt guilty towards him, thought maybe he hasn't had his lunch then he said he had already eaten, just want to eat abit. So in the end he took porridge for me, asked me whether do i want to drink soup or what, like those dishes cooked but without my share. I said no very firmly but he just scooped those ingredients for me but i putted it back. He then asked, Dad: Why i take for you, you don't want to eat ah? Me: This is their meal for dinner, later not enough Dad: Enough lah, at night they will add on, so don't say anymore, i take for you just eat, i know it's your favourite dishes. Me: Said nothing but looked at how he took those food for me, i was really touched. And of course, wonder why he did all these all of a sudden. Sat down and eat, he plucked fish for me and put into my bowl, seriously at that moment my tears could fall out anytime. But i tried to hold my tears back and get a hold of myself. Then i just kept looking at my bowl and ate, i don't know how to describe those feelings. It's like someone just filled your heart with warmth. Those barriers or whatever you called just disappeared slowly.. It's because of his small actions like this really touched me alot. Some might think it's weird, why get so touched over a meal? All i can say is that, I really hate eating alone. I hate to eat alone in my room, facing the computer and watching dramas to keep me away. Cus maybe i'm really lonely when I'm at home. And especially the person i never expected to be, came and made my meal a very special one.. My dad.. We didn't spoke a word when eating, but all i can say is that my heart is full of gratitute. I can tell that he's not hungry at all, but sat there and accompanied me, acting like he's eating alot but actually just wants me to eat with him, think he noticed that sometimes i can skip my meals, rather not eat than to go and pack food from outside. Thanks alot dad, i love you alot but i couldn't express myself in any other ways. I know you won't be seeing this, so i expressed how i really feel here. Labels: i would want to let it stop at that moment.., If time could stop at that moment |