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Monday, January 10, 2011 @ 9:01 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.

Hello peeps!
How's life? 2011 is here, hopefully it goes smoothly.
And to be frank, i'll be updating less on blogger now, as i'm busy with school and work.
Time management~ time management~!

First day of school today, all i can say is, my new timetable sucks.
As in monday is like theory all the way till my last lesson which is practical.
During theory lessons today, im trying to stay awake as i've slept late last night.
Not that i want to but already got the habit through my two weeks holidays.
So gonna kick off that habit and adjust my body clock.
wahah~

And got the contract and timetable for Worldskill training.
All i can say is that time is tight and packed.
I really must have the discipline and give my all for the training(s).
Which will start this week.
Quite excited but i know the teaching methods and all will be different from regular classes.
Teacher will be more strict than usual, and will train us to Worldclass standard.

Yeah, hopefully i will have some time online which i doubt so.
And when i have the time i will update yeah?
No promises though.
I won't say stay tune to my blog anymore cus, i won't be that "tuned" into cyberworld.
As i will be dead beat after school.

hmm yeah, random abit.
one of my resolutions for 2011 is to turn straight,
and today i tried to look at guys, i felt that it's seriously damn fail.
The feeling is different when i look at girls.
Have i really turned lesbian??
Why am i feeling this way, im more interested in feminine guys/gays instead of normal guys.
Something's wrong with me or what? hahah!
Well, i will try to turn straight.
If you want to ask me why i want to turn straight, i really can't find a reason for you cus maybe i myself am lost.
Or maybe got the urge to turn?
Which i think i need a long long time.
Been a butch for 5 years.
And not say change then i can.
It takes alot.

And about guy, perhaps i might turn to someone opposite of how i am now?
If i met one whom touched my heart.
You won't know, i wont know only God knows.
All i know in the aspect of relationship, i want a long-term relationship, not a relationship for fun[?] or for the sake of having neither the urge to have.
Instead, i would rather spent the time waiting till i've met the right one.
Cus i dont want to get hurt in relationships anymore.
It kills, and now it feels like there's a barrier in my heart which i can't seem to get over.
Phobia i could say.

Yeah, today a friend of mine asked me
Friend: What are you looking for in your partner? Like your ideal type.
Me: It requires in both gender be it my gf/bf, im looking for someone mature,understanding, patient and someone who is stable like down-to-earth?
I don't like "terms and conditions" in a relationship, i don't like to be tied down by my partner.
I hope he/she will give me my own space at times, like especially anything related to hairdressing cus that's my top priority.
Not someone obsessive nor possessive.

Yeah that's about it, and for looks, it doesn't really matter as long as he/she looks presentable and as long as i like it! hahah!
*Hint: I like people with nice smile.

Alright, that's about it for now, i will update when i can.
Thanks people for being a regular to my blog.
See ya! (: