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Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 11:48 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.

One more day to result day.

Without looking at my result slip, i can just confidently say i flunked it. (:

It would be a miracle if i got good grades.

I'm just preparing for the worst now.

My d&t which im confident in brings me down alot on that bloody theory.

Science, sigh..i was so stupid that i did the wrong section, section A which is easier i did section B. But i guess they'll pick section A of course.

Maths, U-Grade for sure! =]

Trust me, the smiley icons which i typed above are not how im feeling.

I can't be regretting anything now, cus i shouldn't.

Many advices and many problems occur, just to tell me to study and all.

But i didn't heed those advices.

That's why, that's what i get(:

I won't say "if" or anything like this cus what's done is done.

And i reap what i sow, that's the consequences for my lazyness for studies.

Or perhaps just the beginning for my consequences?

I've looked through the courses available in ITE, over and over again.

But other than hairstyling, there really isn't any other course that interest me.

So i had it all planned(:

If i really cannot enter hairstyling, i would quit school or rather ITE and go out to work first.

Then the salary i earned, im gonna save it, save till it's more than enough then go to other country to pick up the basics of hairstyling to diploma if possible. And start developing everything there.

I know it might sound unachievable but, you'll never know.

I'm not trying to sound over-confident or what,

im worried for what my future holds for me as well if i were to take this path.

But honestly, in Spore, how many hairstylist is REALLY successful here?

...?

Singaporeans aren't that generous to spend money on places like/for this, isn't it?
[no offence]

But if you compare to other countries like japan , korea, Hong Kong or maybe even taiwan, you will know just by walking around the streets and people are always well dressed.

And are willing to spend money looking better, so for me i think this way, starting at overseas will be more successful, in a sense.

Because most people here scrimp money on this and that, won't say it's not good or what.

But sometimes things like that shouldn't be scrimped.

I really don't have any idea how the fashion industry is like and how it works.

But all i know, people who are working in there are striving hard to be the best.

It is a very competitive career after all.

It's kind of weird, because i started to have interest in hairstyling this year and it become my passion and goal within a year.

Is it because of my impulsiveness?

I know my plan isn't realistic nor reasonable, when i say this.

It might sound childish or many other negative reason.

People might say, "why not just get into any course first, you might start loving it?" yeah kind of true, but it never really works for a person like me.

or "there are so many course which pays well and stuffs like that" but to me, doing something you ain't interested in and no passion for it, but with high pay,it really doesn't work for someone like me.

For now, yes, good part-time hourly pay is what im looking for in a job. Because i got no choice, my family is depending on me as well.

But Imagine everyday, you have to get up for something you really don't like and not interested in.

Such a waste of time and energy.

All in all, i won't go to any course which im not interested in.

That's what i get lah.

tsk.

Oh btw, check out this S.E.O.U.L Song: Super Junior and SNSD!

Didn't want to upload the ones with eng sub cus it's a distraction to the video.
Hahah, this mv very cute^^

Clique: I don't know how you guys think about what i think.
But i know i've let you down, because you've tried many ways to get my head into studying.
It's very hard and tiring, i know.
Especially when i don't listen to any of you, or just pretending to listen.
You might be pissed off when i talk about things like that, and might not want to listen to any of these.
Because im just doing the talk instead of walking the talk.
Like what i've said, i reap what i sow.
Although it's alittle regretting me now but well.., sigh i run of of reasons to cover up for this now, because i got no reason to.
hah.
For example, i've always said i want to slim down.
But i haven't made it.
Not even, till now.
I wonder where has my determination gone to, or do i even have it?
I doubt i have it.
It's so easy to say, "don't give up", "try".
The outcome will be beautiful but the process is hard.
That's why, i just failed during the process.
And it's because during the process, words like "don't give up" and people trying to push you to become better comes in.
And the people in my life who are the light during the process, are you guys.
I don't know why am i saying all this out suddenly, i know it must be weird.
To just flashback this year, not to mention the 3 years before.
i felt that i've been a burden to you guys throughout these/this year(s).
Maybe not now, or not yet have i yet to change that horrendous personality/habit of mine for just saying but not doing.
I'm trying, trying hard to change that flaw of mine.
i'm sorry.
[ i know it makes no sense by saying sorry now but still, i would like to apologize.]
Forgive me for my mistakes. =}