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XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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Million Miles Away
Sunday, January 16, 2011 @ 7:51 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Hey readers,this post is just to rant my feeling out, if you are not interested, you dont have to read. Cus im just blogging my feelings about this drama which I'm watching now that strongly reminded me of my mom. It's about a girl looking for her dad, and what does it reminds me of? hahah, my long lost mom. Can say long lost, cus she divorced with my dad then cut ties and connections with everyone. Abandoned me. While im typing here, im laughing stupidly at myself. Why am i still having the nostalgia feeling in my heart? It feels like..something just triggered my heart and memories. I already stopped searching for her but why do i still keep the hopes in me when i know that it's not possible? I can't help but question myself now. Sometimes i really wonder, how had she been and etc. But never have i got the chance to ask her. Looking and depending on nothing but A photo just reminds me of nothing. But the fact that she left me, for good? It's okay if i didn't get to ask her anything, but am i asking too much to want to see her again? It would be good to know what kind of mother gave birth to me, and what kind of a person is she.. Or just see her from a distance, just to know she's fine and living well. Everytime i console myself, she must have her difficulties or whatever reason. But for whatever reason, i wonder what kind of courage does it takes to abandon one's child. I've been living my life for almost 18 years, and till now, i know nothing about her.. I really hope to see you again, i wish to call you Mummy like any other child would call their mom, i wish to hug you like how a child would hug their mom. I'm all grown up now, but inside me, im still a child yearning for a mom's warmth and love. Labels: Triggered memories |