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XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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Never will you be forgotten
Friday, March 11, 2011 @ 8:10 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Really don't know how to start off here. Well, had been at grandpa's funeral for the past 4-5 days. Haven't been to school as well. Today brought him to burn his body away, it's the most painful thing to see.. I miss you grandpa.. I really really do.. You and grandma brought me up, showered me with your love and under your care, im grown up healthily. Really can't bear to let you go, but the thought of you being able to be with grandma again, im happy for you. Got so much to say, but now words couldn't even interpret it. Now, im left with my dad. IF he's gone, i really don't know what to do. These are the 3 most important people in my life, two gone, one left. It's like i loved and lost somebody, how does it feel to have both of these at the same time? Most would say, at least i've got to loved and be loved, it's right. But it's not what the whole thing is about. If there's time machine, i really would like to have one. I do not have any regrets nor felt like i haven't been fillial to my grandpa, cus it's really useless to do that when he's into another dimension of the world. The reason why i don't love or trust easily is because of two main reason, I'm afraid of losing and the other is all because of insecurities. Most would say im just a cold-blooded person, even if it's so, put your words to last until you get to know me. I'm always judged, so i just got to do the best out of what i can. Grandpa said, "It doesn't matter if everyone around you misunderstands you, just do what you ought to and prove them wrong someday". I promised what i promised to you on your sick bed, and even when sending you off. I will be and do my best. I'll be good, i'll work hard, i'll try to be happy and strong.. Thanks alot for guiding me and looking after me for all these years(: I do remember the times you used to cane me and yell at me just to get me up for school. We ate together, how we watch tv shows/programmes, how i share things with you, how you watched me watching dramas when im using the com, how you remember what i like and all. Every little thing, i would never forget. As im typing here, memory plays in my mind. and to be using the word memory, it hurts as well.. |