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XIN YING ▼ "Born to live, live to dream, and dream to live." Took my first breath in this world on 22/April/1993. My current course in ITE: Hair Fashion & Design. Inspired to become the best Hairdresser, prove those wrong right. Music fills my days. Friends are my life, without them, my days are meaningless and dull. I'm someone whose straightforward and HATE Homophobics. Don't judge me before you even get to know me This is where i write how i feel,perhaps from here you may get to know me more? I Suck at expressing, so therefore this is the only place which i blog how i feel. Cus everytime i try, i get tongue tied. I don't lead an interesting life, just very ordinary. But i have a dream, that dream rides me to different vitality, challenging and extraordinary. Know me, and you'll know how it goes. I don't entertain haters here, so if you've got to the wrong site, just simply click the close button. "It's foolish to be obsessed with past failures. And it's just as foolish to be self-satisfied with one's small achievements." FORMSPRING
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When things starts to become different
Sunday, February 27, 2011 @ 11:42 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Hey..How's life people? Another night sitting down my block, having thoughts,listening music and now here blogging. I just came back from the hospital. had been at the hospital for the past few days and night. Something funny just happened as I'm here blogging, A lady was sitting on a bench in front of the swing. A bangala came and sat on the swing, wearing sarong. He walked pass me, actually didn't noticed him at all cus it's all dark right now. Plus he's dark, so yeah. That lady just came to me and asked whether can she join me, I agreed. She told me that the bangala was masturbating himself on the swing! -.- Disgusting much, stupid man. Didn't know she's my neighbors, dont think she's local, her accent is different. She asked am I crazy to be sitting here alone at night? She asked whether am I scared. I laughed and said no, then to double confirm. She asked if I'm a girl. Hahah! Then she went off. Kind of hilarious. I'm more afraid of what tomorrow brings. I'm afraid to hear something I do not wish to.. The doctor will be flying from back to singapore tonight. He will be looking on my grandpa's condition. There's actually two choice for my grandpa. 1: to go for operation, chances are 50/50 of success. And if the surgery is sucessful, he will still have to rely on the machines he's using now. 2: take out the pipe that is giving him oxygen right now, and see whether he can breathe on his own without relying on the machines. If cannot..then he will be put to sleep...:'{ He chose number 2.. Just now when I look at him, his face looked worried. The nurses said he hasn't been sleeping, he doing alot of thinking. My aunt and uncles said to give him encouragement, we did. I talked to him, when he agreed/yes, he would blink his eyes. Then shake his head when he said no. Was talking to my grandpa's maid just now, she told me how grandpa used to share things about me with her and what did he talk about. I cried upon hearing. What's my favorite food, my favorite ice cream, he knows what's my favorite story book, he still remembers.. In his eyes, I'm still that little child.. I stood beside him in the ward, my aunt asked what did I say. I replied I said nothing. But I'm speaking to him in my heart, he felt it. He looked at me and hold my hand tight. Grandpa, I know you're trying to tell me don't worry, you will be fine. Cus you dont want make me worry. Grandpa.. Please be stay strong.. You took care of me since young.. You're like my father, protect me, take care of me, taught me many things. Please get well, I want to watch television with you, eat dinner with you, chat with you, listen to your stories and hearing your explanations when I don't understand what the show is all about. |